.RAMBLES IN MY HEAD…SEPTEMBER 25, 2011.EVERY DAY EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY I MAKE SUCH AN EFFORT JUST TO TALK TO YOU, TO HANG OUT WITH YOU. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I DO WHEN ALL YOU DO IS SHUT ME OUT! AND WHEN I TELL YOU I GIVE UP BECAUSE I FEEL I PUT SO MUCH INTO MAKING AN EFFORT WHEN I GET NOT A FUCKIN THING IN RETURN YOU BEG ME NOT TO GO YOU SAY IM THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU…WELL WHY DONT YOU SHOW IT?…
IMAGINE IF I WERE TO BRING A BOY LIKE THIS TO MOTHER AND FATHER? X)
.BUT MY OH MY I WOULD BE LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD TO HAVE HIM <3_<3.6:09
.AHHHHHH, THIS BOY IS JUST UGH SO PERFECT! >.<
.NOVEMBER 10, 2011
.STAYING UP LATE NIGHTS CAUSE OF MY ANXIETY…MAAAN DOES IT GET LONELY. LATELY, MY MIND HAS BEEN IN RUINS…I USED TO HAVE A BEST FRIEND BUT I DONT KNOW WHERE SHES GONE…AND IVE BEEN NEEDING HER THE MOST RECENTLY BUT O’WELL I GUESS. SOMEONE BOUGHT UP THE PAST WHICH HAS BEEN TEARING ME DOWN AND MAKES ME ANGRIER THAN EVER SHUT THEM ONCE OUT OF MY LIFE FOR DOING SO THOUGHT THEY WOULD LEARN GUESS NOT. AS FOR THE “BOY MY HEART DESIRES” HAVEN’T HEARD FROM HIM IN A WEEK WHICH IS HEART WRENCHING. AND “THE CRUSH” UGH WHY IS SO PERFECT AND HAVE TO COME INTO MY LIFE?!?!/:<
11:58.UGGGGGH! STUPID EMOTIONS I HATE YOU!.IM ON THE VERGE OF TEARS BUT, YET I HAVE MY FIST CLENCHED TIGHT WITH ANGER..WHY WHY WHY WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?!.I CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH AND YOU JUST TEAR ME APART.
SEPTEMBER 26, 2011.I THOUGHT WRONG ONCE MORE..I THOUGHT HE WOULD AT LEAST TEXT ME OR CALL ME…I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS GOING ON BETWEEN US ANYMORE..IM TIRED OF THIS…
SEPTEMBER 27, 2011.HE TEXTED ME TODAY…I THOUGHT I WOULD BE HAPPY WHEN HE DID…BUT I WASNT I DIDNT CARE MUCH.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8e8zJJLVd0
11:30.WHAT THE FUCK?!.HE CALLED ME A TYPICAL GIRL?!?! WHAT THE FUCK DOES HE WANT UGHHHH! DONE DONE DONE!.THATS SOMETHING YOU SHOULDN’T SAY TO A GIRL YOU CLAIM TO LIKE!.HAHA, IS IT WEIRD THAT I JUST CRIED BECAUSE OF THE LAST EPISODE OF AWKWARD?.MATTY SUCH A HOT MOFOOOO<3 UGH! ^.^
SEPTEMBER 28, 2011.I REJECTION- THE WORST PAIN EVER KNOWING YOUR NEVER GOOD ENOUGH…
SEPTEMBER 29, 2011 .TODAY WAS GOOD…VERY GOOD<3
11:44.IS IT WEIRD THAT I HAVEN’T STOPPED SMILING SINCE I SEEN HIM?:) AND TO ADD TO THAT I SEEN HIM AT 6 AND NOW ITS 11 :O.HE MAKES ME NERVOUS. HE MAKES MY WORDS BECOME UNSPOKEN WITH THAT SMILE OF HIS. HE MAKES MY HEART BEAT TOOOO FAST FOR MY LITTLE CHEST. HE MAKES ME EXTREMELY GITTERY. HE MAKES ME SMILE RANDOMLY…HE MADE ME FALL FOR HIM…
SEPTEMBER 30, 2011.I PUT TO MUCH HOPE INTO THE THOUGHT OF “US” WHEN I KNOW IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN.
OCTOBER 10, 2011.FALLING FOR SOME…AND KNOWING IM GOING TO GET MY HEART BROKEN IS SOMETHING I DO OFTEN *SIGH*.
OCTOBER 13, 2011.I JUST…I DONT KNOW…I LIKE HIM BUT I KNOW HE ONLY SEES ME AS A FRIEND BUT UGH BEING AROUND HIM OR JUST TALKING TO HIM MAKES ME SMILE MAKES MY DAY…STUPID HEART WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME?
12:19.WELL THERE GOES MY DEPRESSION…IM GONNA CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP NOW.12:48…He IS NOW TAKEN</3.IM CRYING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW ITS GETTING HARDER TO BREATHE I CANT OPEN MY EYES AND MY PILLOW IS SOAKING WET FROM MY TEARS.
.DEAR HEART I WOULD MUCH APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD STOP DOING THIS TO ME.I KNOW IM NOTHING SPECIAL TO ANYONE..IM A NOBODY.
AND NOW I REALLY NEED TO GET USED TO BEING ALONE. .NOVEMBER 2, 2011
.HAVEN’T WRITTEN MUCH ON HERE ANYMORE…BUT THEN AGAIN NOTHING MUCH HAS CHANGED…STILL HAVING A HEARTACHE…BUT THEN AGAIN THERE ARE FAMILY WOES WE ARE GOING THROUGH BUT A SAYING I NEED TO KEEP IN MIND “TIME WILL HEAL ALL”…
.DEAR HEART I WOULD MUCH APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD STOP DOING THIS TO ME.I KNOW IM NOTHING SPECIAL TO ANYONE..IM A NOBODY.
AND NOW I REALLY NEED TO GET USED TO BEING ALONE. .NOVEMBER 2, 2011
.HAVEN’T WRITTEN MUCH ON HERE ANYMORE…BUT THEN AGAIN NOTHING MUCH HAS CHANGED…STILL HAVING A HEARTACHE…BUT THEN AGAIN THERE ARE FAMILY WOES WE ARE GOING THROUGH BUT A SAYING I NEED TO KEEP IN MIND “TIME WILL HEAL ALL”…
.NOVEMBER 7, 2011
IMAGINE IF I WERE TO BRING A BOY LIKE THIS TO MOTHER AND FATHER? X)
.BUT MY OH MY I WOULD BE LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD TO HAVE HIM <3_<3.6:09
.AHHHHHH, THIS BOY IS JUST UGH SO PERFECT! >.<
.NOVEMBER 10, 2011.STAYING UP LATE NIGHTS CAUSE OF MY ANXIETY…MAAAN DOES IT GET LONELY. LATELY, MY MIND HAS BEEN IN RUINS…I USED TO HAVE A BEST FRIEND BUT I DONT KNOW WHERE SHES GONE…AND IVE BEEN NEEDING HER THE MOST RECENTLY BUT O’WELL I GUESS. SOMEONE BOUGHT UP THE PAST WHICH HAS BEEN TEARING ME DOWN AND MAKES ME ANGRIER THAN EVER SHUT THEM ONCE OUT OF MY LIFE FOR DOING SO THOUGHT THEY WOULD LEARN GUESS NOT. AS FOR THE “BOY MY HEART DESIRES” HAVEN’T HEARD FROM HIM IN A WEEK WHICH IS HEART WRENCHING. AND “THE CRUSH” UGH WHY IS SO PERFECT AND HAVE TO COME INTO MY LIFE?!?!/:<
.NOVEMBER 16, 2011.WHEN ARGUING WITH A STUPID PERSON JUST MAKE SURE HE ISNT DOING THE SAME THING. .There Are two kinds of people in the world givers and takers the takers eat better But the givers sleep better
.December 10, 2010
.I Have The Most Amazing Friends On This Planet And Today Was A Great Day Spent With Them<3
december 15, 2011I dont know why I waste my time thinking of you talking about you looking at you when I know you will never like me the way I like you the way I care for you the way I talk about you.I talk about you like you were some sort of god that was put on this planet. like there is no one like You. Even though that is true no is like you no one will be like you no one will or can ever take the place that you hold in my life. I just wish that you would acknowledge me. Or If you don’t like me let me know now don’t lead me on anymore my heart cant take this anymore Im going crazy thinking about you everyday I cant go to bed because you are always on my mind i CAN”T do this anymore nor do I WANT to do this anymore..Please Help Me…
.Febuary 17, 2012
.I havent been writing on here often dont know why but I should start again.
.So I just seen of the scariest movies ever. Not of ghost, killing, aliens not anything like that. Something for more real and can happen to anyone. And the movie is called blue valentines. Its sad and scary how fast you can fall out of love with someone. Its Just…Ugh You Need to see it for yourself to understand. Even though it put a fast reality check on me I still love the movie…And it Had Ryan Gosling in it so its all Good:P<3
december 15, 2011I dont know why I waste my time thinking of you talking about you looking at you when I know you will never like me the way I like you the way I care for you the way I talk about you.I talk about you like you were some sort of god that was put on this planet. like there is no one like You. Even though that is true no is like you no one will be like you no one will or can ever take the place that you hold in my life. I just wish that you would acknowledge me. Or If you don’t like me let me know now don’t lead me on anymore my heart cant take this anymore Im going crazy thinking about you everyday I cant go to bed because you are always on my mind i CAN”T do this anymore nor do I WANT to do this anymore..Please Help Me…
.Febuary 17, 2012
.I havent been writing on here often dont know why but I should start again.
.So I just seen of the scariest movies ever. Not of ghost, killing, aliens not anything like that. Something for more real and can happen to anyone. And the movie is called blue valentines. Its sad and scary how fast you can fall out of love with someone. Its Just…Ugh You Need to see it for yourself to understand. Even though it put a fast reality check on me I still love the movie…And it Had Ryan Gosling in it so its all Good:P<3
